Here we Galau again :))

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,"
Yeah.

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Ga sengaja liat nama Adele di Gogirl, dan googling di youtube, trus ada lagu ini. Ngingetin seorang mantan yang uda nikah dan mau punya anak si :))
Hahaha seems funny but it's quite shock. Sometimes you don't realize how fast time flies.
Maybe it's a same case with my skripsi, and until now, i just break my own timeline. Not good actually :((

Congratulations :)

Even you read this or not, i just want to say..

&

GOOD LUCK for your wedding and marriage life

Thank you for always be there for me from 2007-2010. Thank you for your caring and love :)

Finally, case closed.

Hei, you. Yeah, i hate you. Sorry.

Mad :(

I'm so sorry, i just mad at you right now. So, maybe I don't mean this, but please leave me alone.

Aku bakal inget malem ini :)

Cuma iseng pas buka profile Fb akang itu malem ini, dan yah.. Dia statusnya bilang dia sedang jatuh Cinta.

Logika sie, bilang oh yawda bagus kalo gitu. Berarti uda nemu hepi nya.

Tapi yang aku rasain mala berlawanan.

Dasar aneh, aku malah nangis sesegukan. Semakin keras dan semakin sakit. Susah berenti nya. Tiba-tiba aja mengasihani diri sendiri, uda nunggu dari Januari 2008, giliran uda mau ketemu bulan dia pulang dari Jepang malah kayak gini semua. Berantakan.

Ga kuat nyelesain nangis sendiri, aku nelpon Artha berulang-ulang kali.

Thanks God, dia ngangkat telepon. Yah, bisa ditebak. Dia langsung panik denger nangis aku yg lebay. Nyahaha. Aku aja panik berulang kali minta diem ke diri sendiri tapi ga bisa2, apalagi Artha yang denger :(

Artha ngebantu aku mikir pake logika. Artha ngehibur dengan kata2nya. Dan yaaah, aku sempet menyesali kenapa mesti nangis kayak gitu. Dan aneh sendiri aja, uda lama lost contact, uda banyak ketemu orang, uda lama 'lupa', tapi ternyata tau dia jatuh cinta lagi aja udaa bikin aku nangis ga berenti2.

Tapi kata Artha itu sie ga bodoh. Cuma tanda aja kalo aku pernah sayang banged sama dia. Dan ga salah sama perasaan sayang. Yah, Artha bener :) Artha ngulang kata2, "Someday pasti ada kok Dilla. Bakal ada orang yg lebih baik. Kamu perna ngomong gini ke aku. Sekarang aku balikin kata2 ini ke kamu. Someday pasti ada Dilla".

Aku harus percaya itu.

Aku jadi inget kata2 Lendi, "Kita ini manusia sebagai aktor yg cuma jalanin skenario Allah. Allah tau mana yg terbaik buat kita. Kita cuma dikasi pilihan dan Allah yg nentuin jalan ceritanya."

Ya, Allah pasti punya maksud ngasi jalan yg "ga gampang" selama 6 taun ini. Allah ngajarin aku buat lebi tough, lebi sabar, lebi dewasa, dan hal-hal positif lainnya lewat dua makhluk indahnya :)

Hm, mungkin tepat juga aku terimakasi sama kalian yg uda pergi :) many good things had come after both of you left :D

Aku juga jadi inget kata2 Iman, "Kamu uda bilang Tuhan ga adil kalo kamu bilang kamu selalu kalah."

Aku yakin suatu hari aku bakal nemu kebahagiaanku sendiri dan aku bakal berterimakasih uda perna dapet keadaan seperti ini yg bikin aku jadi banyak berubah lebih baik :)

Congrats yaaa :)

Have a nice life! Cheers-

P.S :

Dear YOU yg bikin aku terlihat bodoh nangis sesegukan 1 jam, kalo kamu liat aku masi di titik sama, bukan karena aku masi mikirin kamu ampe bikin aku ga cepet dapet pacar baru seperti kata kamu, tapi karena aku belum nemu Mr. Right. Yeah, aku uda lama move on kok. Tenang aja.

Dear my future boyfriend/husband, please don't ask me to remove this post. Post ini buat ngingetin aku pernah jatuh dan jatuhnya aku sekarang yang bikin ketemu kamu ;)

There's nothing good about goodnight when it means goodbye

Maaf ya aku tadi kasar sama kamu di telepon.

Aku kaget ternyata kamu beneran ngehindarin aku.

Aku tau-tau jadi marah banged, ngerasa tersinggung : emang aku salah apa ampe kamu segitunya?

Tapi aku yakin kamu pasti punya pertimbangan sendiri.

Yah, walo aku nyayangin banged sie..

Tadinya aku pikir aku masi bisa share apapun sama kamu, masi bisa saling support, masi bisa becandaan kayak dulu..

Tapi kalo kamu maunya gini, aku terima kok. Mungkin dengan adanya aku bikin kamu jadi malah tambah ribet yaa.. :) Jadi sekarang... aku terima kok. Aku hargain :)

Terimakasih banged buat semuanya.

Terimakasih pernah mau jadi orang terpenting di hidup aku :)

Terimakasih udah nemenin aku ngelewatin banyak hal penting di hidup aku.

Terimakasih udah ngebantu aku buat bangun dan ngadepin semuanya dengan tegak.

Terimakasih, Terimakasih, Terimakasih :)

Aku doain semoga kamu sukses yaaa :)

Really big thank you for all love, caring, and respect from January 2008-February 2010. It means so much to me :)

Love,

Dilla

James Blunt-Goodbye my Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?

Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,

Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.

Took your soul out into the night.

It may be over but it won't stop there,

I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.

You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind and that I knew when,

My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your hand.

Shared your dreams and shared your bed.

I know you well, I know your smell.

I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,

You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me,

Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.

I'd be the father of your child.

I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.

We've had our doubts but now we're fine,

And I love you, I swear that's true.

I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.

In mine when I'm asleep.

And I will bear my soul in time,

When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow

Goodbye my Lover

James Blunt-Goodbye my Lover


Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

One Day before My 21st

13 November 2008.


Pagi ini, aku bangun dan nyadar aku masi di Rumah Ijo. Jam setengah 8 pagi. Ada aku dan Anggi yang share sofa semaleman. Di tempat yang sama juga ada Okkie, Ajeng, Efwan, Welly, dan Ijo yang share kasur. Haha, kami semua pada tepar setelah brainstorming materi Litbang. Katanya Efwan, ketua PRO taun ini, hari ini dia mesti ketemu sama Kang Hafidz (ketua Hima Humas Unpad 2008-2009) buat 'ngobrolin' materi. Diuji materi PRO sie sebenernya. Materi harus dimatengin buat malem Dewa. FYI soal malem Dewanya ntar aja yaa :)
Dianter sama Okkie pulang, nyampe kosan uda jam 8 pagi. Padahal, kuliah pertama itu jam 8. Yah, yawda deh, telat masuk. Ditegur sama Bu Diah jadinya. Pertemuan tadi pagi, kami disuruh bikin kelompok dan nyiapin presentasi bisnis. Produknya boleh nyata ato imajinasi. Minggu depan ntar baru kami presentasiin produknya. Setelah kelar dari kuliah Bu Diah, Okkie minta temenin makan di kantin. Berhubung belum laper, aku ga ikutan makan. Pas lagi diem2 aja sambil ngerasain capenya badan, tiba2 HP aku yang putih bunyi. No Simpatiku dapet telpon. Yang bikin aneh, telpon itu tiap diangkat ga ada orang yang ngomong. Ga bisa denger lah pokoknya. Udah gitu, yang nelpon nonya beda2. Entah telpon yang keberapa, aku baru bisa denger suara yang diseberang.. "Ini aku, Ibay". Huaaa, surprise banged! Antara percaya ga percaya. Apalagi pas denger alasan dia nelpon. "Iyaa, pengen ngucapin ultah. Ibay kerja ntar malem. Ga mau keduluan orang laen. Makanya dicepetin ngucapinnya." Bikin nangis. Huhuhu, malu deh. Masa nangis di kantin.. Untung lagi ga gitu banyak orang. Untung juga ga ada peserta PRO. Haha, tengsin bo panitianya malah mewek di tempat umum. Huhuhu, nakal! Makasi ya Ibaay :") Uda bela2in nelpon dari negara sana buat aku :D Apalagi special buat ultah ya ceritanyaaa ;)) hihihi.
Setelah ngobrol2 sama Ibay di telpon, kuliah Hubin. Ternyata, Pak Aangnya ga ada. Tapi kami mesti ngumpulin tugas UTS, wawancara perusahaan. DEG. Aku dan Okkie belum wawancara sama sekali. Parah banged. Tugas Hubin jadi terbengkalai gara2 PRO. Argh. Mana belum buat surat dari kampus. Tapi aku dan Okkie nekat we ke Bandung. Pertama ke Al Ma'soem yang di Cikalang. Tet tooot. Ga ada sarikat kerjanya. Terus ke Delami Brands. Tet tooot. Ke Carrefour, di suru bawa proposal. Tet Tooot. Ke Pos Indonesia. Tet toooot ga bawa surat. Telpon ke Djarum dan Bio Farma, Tet tooot baru bisa Senin :))
Hahaha, intinyaaa... pulang dengan tangan hampa :) Untuk ngehibur diri, aku dan Okkie makan di Bebek Garang. Ahahaha. Kami belum makan siang, laper banged dah. Aku mili Bebek Debus Dada. Huah, porsi banyak ternyata. Hahaha, puas dah. Pulangnya aku misah sama Okkie. Aku naek Damri dan Okkie nerusin jalan. Di Damri penuh banged! Sempet berdiri agak lama, ampe ada gentleman asal Papua kayaknya yang nawarin tempat duduknya buat aku. Hehe, makasie ya Mas :D Jadi bisa tidur deh. Bangun2 aku uda di gerbang tol Cileunyi. Walopun tidurnya ga gitu nyaman, tapi lumayan lah. Begitu turun deket Ikopin, T,T ujaaaaaan.... keujanan jadinyaa...
Hahaha, nasib2. Uda ga dapet apa2 dari Bandung, pulangnya keujanan pula :) Tapi lumayan lah. Seru hari ini :) Makasi Ibaay.. Makasie Okkie. Hehehe. 

Catatan Singkat dari Rumah Nindya

Ga biasanya aku nulis blog dari hape gini.
Ga tau nie, tiba-tiba dari perjalanan ketawa ga berenti tadi, aku ngerasa butuh nge publish apa yang dirasain aku. Hehe.
Mungkin ga penting.

Cerita singkat, aku d Jogja sekarang. Ajakan ke Jogja itu bener2 mendadak. Makanya aku ga sempet ngasi tau semua temen deket aku yang di Jogja. Tapi, sebelum aku ngasi tau semua temen deket aku yang di Jogja tentang aku dateng, kami udah ber 15 selama dua hari ini.

Bayangin 15 orang ngumpul dengan bekground temen SMP/SMA yang uda ga maen bareng selama, mungkin, itungan taun.
RAME! Parah! Kalo mobil yang kami pake jalan2 bisa ngomong, mungkin dia bakal ikutan ketawa sepanjang jalan. Berisik banged!

Dari makan bebek, maen2 di alkid, minum kopi joss, maen ke borobudur, makan duren, ampe nganterin Martin nge date bikin Ketawaaa tiap saat..
Tapi begitu ngeliat temen yang sibuk bbm sama pacarnya, temen yang sibuk telpon2an ma pacarnya, temen yang ngebela2in dateng ke rumah pacarnya--dan terpaksa bawa kami--buat ketemu pacarnya, temen yang smsan sama pacarnya, temen yang dapet surprise ulang taun dari pacarnya, ato temen yang nimpali obrolan dengan "cewek gue.." ato "cowok gue.." malah bikin aku ngerasa sepi..

P.a.c.a.r,,
Pacar aku siapa?
Siapa orang pasti yang nemenin aku, ngelindungin aku, nyayangin aku, meratiin aku, ngehibur aku, ngesupport aku, dan temen sharing&diskusi aku?
Apa perasaan ga cukup untuk punya pacar?

Tiba-tiba, aku cape hook-up terus2an gini. Aku pengen in relationship :(



Tapi mungkin juga cuma kebawa suasana aja kali yaaa ;) auk ah.